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Little Thoughts on Spring Walks

Kedar

I slip into my winter boots, lightly insulated, for the impending walk. The dogs, both of them, groan with excitement at the door. After lacing up, I toss on my backpack filled with eight liters of water as we exit the house. The beaten path is impossibly slick, to attempt it would be nonsense. I parallel the icy chute, choosing my steps with care, looking for any detail of texture which provides traction. 


I’ve walked this road for several days now, it is becoming more familiar, but new observations occasionally present themselves. The weather is warming, low hanging gray clouds obscure the mountain peaks and drape down into the gulleys. A subtle rain, perhaps even a mist, materializes from the sky. I don't mind it. Rain is welcome, it is March afterall. 



We have not covered much distance when I recognize a peculiar noise, nearly forgotten. The faint burble of a stream draws my attention. The sound, as well as the sight, of moving water excites me. The change of seasons is nearing and winter, as fun as it was, is losing its grip in the Columbia Valley. 



My latest birthday marks a punctual day in my memory. Late October presented temperatures that I had experienced a handful of times before. The Kicking Horse river, subdued by the low temperatures, drifted by, carrying small sheets of ice. It was there, watching the ice drift along, that I knew winter would be unlike any other I had endured. 

Weathered wood




Now, roughly five months later, water is once again beginning to flow. The magic of spring, the northern hemisphere rejuvenation of life, an awakening from the dark winter days, does not lay ahead. Instead it is happening now




I walk the road. Envisioning spring brings joy to the dreary, coastal-like day. I strive to walk on the patches of bare road, not because they lack snow, but because it is gravel and soil. Soil. Another forgotten consequence of winter. From my first step on soil, I recognized the difference beneath my foot. A silent step, no squeaky crunch of snow, the fear of slipping gone. I can walk with confidence, perhaps even ignorance, as I know that my next steps will not betray me and send me tumbling, slipping or sliding. 

A young Aspen patch taking hold between the conifers and an abandoned field.




New Years Resolutions

The Kicking Horse River delivered lots of ice for new years.

New Years Resolutions, everyone has made one, but by this time of year, no one has carried out the haphazardly thought out agenda. But why? 


Is the idea of committing a whole lap around the sun while undertaking, or avoiding, a goal too much to handle? Or is it because time is a human construct and the fact that the calendar changes digits actually has little to no effect on your daily life? Forbes lists the top three reasons as:


1) It’s your consciousness that needs to change before your behavior can change-

This relates to the time is a human construct idea, the calendar changes, but you as an individual are more or less just as you were yesterday. 


2) You don’t have an accountability structure to help you sustain change-

Tracking your habits and visually recognizing where you are at in your plan has huge benefits. It doesn’t leave you questioning what days you achieved your goal last week


3) You are actually scared of, and completely resistant to, achieving this big goal and you won’t let yourself-

This is due to internal commentary and feelings, whether it be feeling flawed, worrying about leaving people behind, the new potential burden of success, or “outshining”. 


I have taken the New Years Resolution and rearranged some terms, that are more realistic and palatable. Rather than committing to 1 goal for 12 months, I have 12 goals for 1 month. What’s the point of this? Well, first off, relating to an earlier post, it is success in small bites. By accomplishing several small tasks, I have set myself up for success and gain confidence along the way by being successful. The saying “Rome wasn’t built in a day” encapsulates the concept well. 


What are your 12 resolutions?! 


I will tell you, but first, there is one more caveat. Once a month has passed, and I have experienced what a month of doing whatever goal it is, there is the option to “Take it or Leave it”. If I enjoyed attaining the goal or I saw that it had great benefits, I will Take it. I’ll continue with that goal throughout the year, perhaps longer. If I didn’t find the benefit I anticipated or it wasn’t worthwhile, I’ll Leave it knowing that I did it for a month. 


The resolutions I am participating in this wonderful 12 month year are:

January - No alcohol

February - Floss every day

March - No THC

April - Daily mindfulness

May - Spend money on essentials ONLY

June/July/August - Daily Journal (On the GDT)

September - 15 minutes of yoga daily

October - Sober October

November - Stick to a morning routine

December - Vegan


So far, January has been great. By avoiding spending money on alcohol, we have saved at least over $100 (probably), haven’t had a hazy or hungover morning, and have been able to be productive on the daily. My biggest concern was social pressure to have a drink, but by bringing some flavored bubbly water, that worry was gone. It turns out that the feeling was more habitual than anything and by having a substitute in my hand I didn’t feel the urge to have a drink I anticipated. 


January is a TAKE. 

 

There are my 12 months of goals, each month is realistic and attainable, setting myself up for success. What are your thoughts? If you made a new years resolution like this, what would you include? 


Winter Spirits

Icy water flows under the Kicking Horse Pedestrian Bridge.

The mornings have grown still, it is 8:15, the light just beginning to show and brighten the world. It looks cold, grey...lifeless. The trees are reflections of their roots having shed all of their leaves, now posing as multi-stemmed spires pointing skywards. I sit inside sipping my coffee while pondering an existence without heated housing, just the thought leads me to believe I wouldn’t have made it to 28. Although I am in the comfort of my living room bundled in warm clothes, I soon will be walking with my wife to work. The frozen morning staring at me through the double pane windows, like a spirit, taunting me. 



It is November first and will be my first winter in Canada. The surrounding mountains are already donning their winter jackets, freshly white from the last precipitation event. The time is now 8:40, departure. I suit up into long johns, pants, sweater, puffy, and an aviator hat. I am ready. The cold morning taunts me less enthusiastically now, I have prepared to enter the world. 



Refreshing, the air filling my lungs. Chilling my nostrils as I inhale deeply. The morning is quiet and still. There is no breeze, no sounds. The world seems shell shocked by the first icy morning. Yesterday's mud is now frozen with tire imprints that may not fade until spring when the northern hemisphere begins to warm once again. The puddle that we generally avoid is now the home of a miniature skating rink, surrounded by defeated fans, or, in reality, remnants of Aesculus hippocastanum (Horse Chestnut) . We’re five minutes into our stroll and I can feel the cold in my lips, particularly my bottom lip. 



We climb the short gravel slope to the riverside path, the river is as still as I have ever seen it...and quiet. Islands of ice float downstream, coalescing and disbanding at the will of the current. “Holy shit...it’s only November first…” I think to myself. This is going to be a long, cold winter. As we walk upstream a faint scraping sound comes to our attention.



The ice, wandering down stream, grazes with the ice coupled to the river’s bank. The sound is nearly that of nails on a chalkboard, but pleasant. Perhaps they are auditory cousins. The sound gently scrapes along, differing by the size of the ice sheet, creating a feeling that there are many scrapes, scratches, and etchings occurring all along the river (which of course there was). 

It’s almost cold enough for Wim Hof.



It is the winter spirits, they are celebrating. They can once again skate on the soon-to-freeze river. Closing my eyes I can picture all of them gliding up and down the riverway, wearing dated clothing, perhaps the clothes they had worn in their era. Black bonnets slightly cocked, a black and white plaid scarf wrapped around the neck, tail dancing along to the movement, and a red pea-coat covering just below the knees. The morning spirits were not taunting me as I watched them from my warm home, they, excited as Christmas morning children, wanted me to join them. To play and celebrate the winter, to reveal that winter can be fun. Showing me that fearing the winter will only make it longer and colder.